I Left Islam for Judaism
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Timor-David Aklin grew up in Jaffa,Israel as a Muslim Arab. Today he is a full fledge Orthodox Jew. Presently, he passionately advocates for Israel, fearlessly confronting uncomfortable truths. This is an episode about his journey and what motivates him to vocalize his past and hopes for the future.
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Chapter 1: Intro
0:000 secondsas a kid I was mentally tortured for wanting to be kind I was mentally
0:077 secondstortured just for trying to be nice like I remember whenever I tried to be gentle uh well-mannered whatever you know
0:1515 secondsfamily members or just people in my surrounding they would um they would interpret that as weakness since I was a
0:2323 secondskid all I've been seeing is guns people getting shot people getting killed weapons drugs uh terrorism on the
0:3030 secondsstreets all the all the time welcome back to an episode of inspiration for the nation that you've never heard before we've had people come here and
Chapter 2: Welcome
0:3838 secondssay they've converted maybe they were an atheist before they used to be Christian they us to be a Buddhist you never heard
0:4545 secondsthis kind of interview on this show we interviewed teore who used to be a Muslim and practicing Islam and now he
0:5454 secondsis a full-fledged Jew this episode breaks down the struggles and the choices he had to make in order to get
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1:381 minute, 38 secondsagain stick around to the very end very big personal news for living without further Ado here is my conversation with
1:471 minute, 47 secondstour I'm yakob ler and you're listening to inspiration for the
1:531 minute, 53 secondsNation Tour thank you so much for taking your time to do this I have a lot to talk about with you but first could you take us all back to your childhood what
Chapter 3: Childhood
2:022 minutes, 2 secondswas your childhood like growing up as a Muslim following Islam if I uh if I were to try and tell
2:122 minutes, 12 secondsyou my story I'm not sure what the correct order would be um I'm not sure if I could do that in a chronological
2:192 minutes, 19 secondsorder you know so much happened um my memory can stretch all the way back to when I was
2:262 minutes, 26 secondsthree and even then uh bad things were happening and I see them in my head
2:322 minutes, 32 secondsstill till this day like a movie uh one scene at a time from um from time to
2:402 minutes, 40 secondstime it's just like a movie you know I watch one scene from the past when I dwell and it's it's almost never
2:492 minutes, 49 secondspositive and I guess you know that those bad experiences as a kid they helped me
2:562 minutes, 56 secondsdeal with uh some of the things I've been going through in the past few years or maybe maybe even since forever and
3:043 minutes, 4 secondsalways which is like isolation and loneliness uh so since my childhood I
3:123 minutes, 12 secondsjust I I found it easier to be alone than be around people and I think in general because I I always felt uh
3:213 minutes, 21 secondsvulnerable around people uh I feel much stronger uh when I'm by myself um I I
3:283 minutes, 28 secondsconstantly keep keep myself in check uh I stay grounded with my beliefs um I don't have a whispering
3:373 minutes, 37 secondsbird in my ear to stop me whenever I want to do something or demotivate me so whether it's uh something that is meant
3:463 minutes, 46 secondsto fail or you know a successful Endeavor it doesn't matter so every year i' I'd compare myself to the person I
3:543 minutes, 54 secondswas the year prior you know I think it's very standard for human beings to do that um you know in growth and maturity every
4:024 minutes, 2 secondsyear you look back and they like oh I did that so um when I was mature enough to be able to question things I
4:114 minutes, 11 secondsquestioned things when I was mature enough to fight with words I discovered the might to come out to
4:204 minutes, 20 secondsthe public with my conversion life story uh I was very shy at first very scared very paranoid uh you know
4:304 minutes, 30 secondsbeing an Arab and choosing to become Juda judaized you know to become a Jew uh and it's not just a faith thing you
4:374 minutes, 37 secondsknow it's not just the belief of course uh there's the uh religion aspect the religious aspect but it's not the only thing you also have uh the cultural
4:474 minutes, 47 secondsaspect you or Judaism is a culture a Creed a nation so there are so many
4:544 minutes, 54 secondsthings that you have to accustom yourself to uh to adapt and feel like you belong H it's not enough to just
5:025 minutes, 2 secondspractice Judaism you have to do many many many other things so it was never an easy thing um uh for me as many
5:115 minutes, 11 secondspeople view Arab identity and Jewish identity as mutually exclusive uh strictly deamus if you could say uh
5:205 minutes, 20 secondsothers just find it all weird all around um but I never let that get me uh I never let that get to me I I always you
5:295 minutes, 29 secondsknow I I accept everyone even the ones who find it hard to digest what I am uh most of my interactions have always been
5:375 minutes, 37 secondspositive since I became a Jew uh could you and I want to get to to you know I guess your conversion and what life life
Chapter 4: Family
5:445 minutes, 44 secondshas been like but I could you take us back to um I guess your your family life from what I understand you you didn't really know your father what was your
5:525 minutes, 52 secondsrelationship with your mother like what was your relationship with I guess your uncle and your cousins like H so I never met my father I mean I met my father
6:016 minutes, 1 secondonly once but I did not know he was my father so it doesn't really count uh I met my father once it wasn't the best
6:096 minutes, 9 secondsinteraction uh he was asking me a bunch of questions I had no idea he was my dad uh when the police came knocking on my
6:166 minutes, 16 secondsdoor um and they they came and they said you know well we need you to come your
6:236 minutes, 23 secondsfather passed away etc etc uh that was the first time I realized that it was my father and that I once met him uh you
6:326 minutes, 32 secondsknow years before he died and it's so Random uh my mother she she consumed Al jazer her
6:416 minutes, 41 secondswhole life uh she's a Muslim a devoted Muslim uh devout um
6:496 minutes, 49 secondsshe she obviously does not accept uh my transformation she does not accept uh
6:566 minutes, 56 secondsthe life I chose uh to this day I reive very negative messages from her even though we have no relationship
7:037 minutes, 3 secondswhatsoever but you know whenever there's a terrorist attack or whenever uh there is some Israeli aggression somewhere in
7:107 minutes, 10 secondsuh Judea and Samaria like in Janine or something like that whenever we have to take out terrorists because all the time you know we have uh terror attack
7:197 minutes, 19 secondsattempts and attacks as well uh so she would send me anti Israel stuff uh she would send me the to karta stuff she
7:277 minutes, 27 secondstell me these are the real Jews uh but she would also send me very anti-semitic things uh most of the time
7:367 minutes, 36 secondslike uh you Jews your day your day is coming um and other other um
7:447 minutes, 44 secondsanti-semitic tropes that she usually just I don't I don't even know how to explain my mother but like it's just
7:527 minutes, 52 secondsvery very violent with her messages and my uncles um they were it was a mix you know it
8:008 minuteswas like a fusion they were somewhere between terrorists and criminals uh they did not really care so much
8:098 minutes, 9 secondsabout the state uh but they weren't uh they weren't against the state in their
8:168 minutes, 16 secondsactions just in thought uh in their actions they were just criminals uh they were Thugs and they do what criminals do
8:248 minutes, 24 secondsuh whether it's uh drugs guns um you know whatever ever Mafia people do I'm not a mafia expert I apologize but
8:338 minutes, 33 secondswhatever they do uh yeah it was always there while at the same time they were
8:398 minutes, 39 secondsholding a very Muslim Islamic um appearance um whether it was whether it's the robe they were wearing whether
8:488 minutes, 48 secondsit was the Beards whether it was the Quran whether it was just uh you know just making Dua all the time
8:568 minutes, 56 secondsand going to the mosque and giving charity and doing all these things pilgrimage so these are my family
9:049 minutes, 4 secondsmembers more or less I have a question for you particularly when I see you know on the news you know God forbid there's like a
Chapter 5: Parents
9:139 minutes, 13 secondsbombing or a suicide bombing or a terrorist attack and and the the terrorist gets neutralized and they get
9:209 minutes, 20 secondskilled um you see sometimes on the news like the especially the mother the mother of the terrorist celebrating and
9:299 minutes, 29 secondsand being so happy and I guess from at least the Western culture or just you know I think any culture out of I guess that world it's like shocking because
9:389 minutes, 38 secondslike usually the mother or the parents are always like okay what could I do to ensure my kid lives and lives a good life is that true is that like is that
9:469 minutes, 46 secondslike fake stuff happening or is that like your experience with that as well um I think it's a little bit of
9:549 minutes, 54 secondscolumn A a little bit of colum be um it really depends on the individual ual uh many many are very proud to raise their
10:0210 minutes, 2 secondschildren to uh go kill and get killed uh While others sometimes you know they
10:1210 minutes, 12 secondsum I guess they're just riding the wagon you know they're uh they're trying to capitalize on a situation and they just
10:2010 minutes, 20 secondsdo what they do so they can receive more money because they have uh big bonuses whenever they're able to kill a Jew um I
10:2910 minutes, 29 secondshave a friend who asked me multiple times to help him interrogate terrorists in Judea and Samaria because I'm fluent in Arabic and they didn't always have
10:3710 minutes, 37 secondsthe manpower to do things they needed to do and they needed to know if they should let him go or not so they called
10:4410 minutes, 44 secondsme and they had me asking questions for about 30 minutes on the phone and it was his mother uh that gave
10:5310 minutes, 53 secondshim away you know he was a terrorist he was on his way to carry out a terror attack and his mother knew it was
11:0011 minuteshappening she called the police and she said uh my son is about to commit a terrorist attack stop him but she she
11:0811 minutes, 8 secondsdidn't care about him uh because apparently she and him like they had their own issues uh she didn't care about him I guess she just cared about
11:1611 minutes, 16 secondsherself uh and I guess her home household people who live with her they didn't want to lose their house so it
11:2511 minutes, 25 secondscreated some sort of uh deterrence for them you know the thought that maybe it's not just the person who's carrying
11:3311 minutes, 33 secondsout the attack that's going to uh face the punishment but there I met a
11:4011 minutes, 40 secondsterrorist from Janine once uh I went undercover that was about a year and a half ago and I was just pretending to be
11:4711 minutes, 47 secondsa tourist taking pictures and I met this guy and I was talking to him I was I was being very nice you know just trying to pick his brain and learn from him I
11:5611 minutes, 56 secondsasked him like do aren't people afraid AR aren't people scared to go out and commit Terror terrorist attacks and lose
12:0512 minutes, 5 secondstheir you know you lose your home your family all these things no and he said to me so what if
12:1412 minutes, 14 secondsthey lose their house we will build them in we will build them a castle so what if they're uh going to kick them out of
12:2212 minutes, 22 secondsthe country wherever they're going you know we are going to make sure they have millions we'll make sure uh
12:2912 minutes, 29 secondsuh the term he used in Arabic is uh the crown on our heads we'll make sure that wherever they are in the world for what
12:3812 minutes, 38 secondsthey did there will always be a crown on our heads and that's uh it's a very common standard belief
12:4612 minutes, 46 secondsamong most Arabs that you know when you carry out a terrorist attack uh you should be praised you you're not a bad
12:5312 minutes, 53 secondsperson uh we had one guy like that in Jaffa uh an Israeli Arab who carried out a ter attack uh I believe he done it
13:0113 minutes, 1 secondmaybe 40 years ago um because about 10 years ago he was released from prison and there was like uh massive parties
13:0913 minutes, 9 secondscelebrations all over Jaffa the streets but uh he killed a bunch of soldiers 40 years ago and that was here in yafo that
13:1713 minutes, 17 secondswas not in Judea Samaria or the West Bank it was not in Gaza it was not on a checkpoint was right here so I always
13:2513 minutes, 25 secondsfelt like there's um there's what we see on the surface and then there's like the
13:3213 minutes, 32 secondshidden truth which is uh something most people don't want to really touch or know what was your mother like was she
Chapter 6: Mother
13:4113 minutes, 41 secondsmore the type that's that and and obviously it sounds like you didn't have the best relationship but did she want you to be like okay just you know live
13:4813 minutes, 48 secondsyour life and do whatever it is to whatever it is or was she like oh I'll be proud if you kill yourself in the
13:5513 minutes, 55 secondsname of Allah or whatever yeah no uh for me um she would always guilt me in growing
14:0414 minutes, 4 secondsup uh like look at the kids in Gaza look how they look at how they have nothing oh look at these kids in the duff duff means West Bank uh they have no shoes
14:1314 minutes, 13 secondsthey have no this they have no that so she would always try to make me feel bad about having more than them but I don't know if that's true um she she never
14:2214 minutes, 22 secondstold me to go out and do something like that right but whenever something happened she would celebrate it and I guess she would try to educate me to be
14:3114 minutes, 31 secondshappy as well when it happened you know I was just 8 years old seven or 8 years old when uh 911 happened that we were at
14:4014 minutes, 40 secondshome and people were dancing and chanting and screaming and you know just
14:4614 minutes, 46 secondsa whistle uh whistle sounds um it it was it was a moment to celebrate that
14:5414 minutes, 54 secondsday for the Arabs I guess around the world Arabs and Muslims Israeli Arabs no exception so there was no
15:0315 minutes, 3 secondsradicalization on my behalf in terms of uh anything physical happening like you
15:1015 minutes, 10 secondsknow what I mean it was just pure hatred anti-semitic indoctrination uh that we were breastfed
15:1815 minutes, 18 secondsbut uh for us for me personally I did not get to go through the violent path mostly because my uncles were extremely
15:2615 minutes, 26 secondsviolent they were all criminals and and growing up I always saw guns I always
15:3215 minutes, 32 secondssaw uh weapons uh grenades anything you know drugs um and these things were they
15:4215 minutes, 42 secondsmade me feel uncomfortable before I even knew what they were I just growing up I never thought I was going to make it
15:4915 minutes, 49 secondspast 18 or so and I never thought I never thought that there's life for me other than either prison or
15:5815 minutes, 58 secondsuh death uh so I um yeah I had to fight for my life
Chapter 7: Scary
16:0816 minutes, 8 secondsbasically it's it's kind of scary because you know I guess continuing on the trajectory of a life that you know
16:1716 minutes, 17 secondsyou were presented it's it just seems like it's very hard and and honestly not like a very long life but the flip side
16:2316 minutes, 23 secondsis to leave that life and I guess to even go down the path that you're you've taken is also I imagine very scary and
16:3216 minutes, 32 secondsand not so simple yeah I mean I want to say I'm brave but I don't
16:4216 minutes, 42 secondsthink I am um I I did it I don't know what I I I
16:4916 minutes, 49 secondsdon't even know what I was thinking man I I'm telling you like when I converted I I knew so many bad things were going
16:5816 minutes, 58 secondsto come right after but I told myself do it it's going to be worth it anyway I told myself like you can't afford to even leave your place you know like a
17:0717 minutes, 7 secondsfamily member of mine when I was 19 years old unfortunately he um he's a very bad person you know he scamed
17:1517 minutes, 15 secondspeople uh probably you know worth millions um he's a con artist he uh
17:2417 minutes, 24 secondsthat's his specialty he's a con artist unfortunately when I was 19 uh because we look alike he managed somehow to fake
17:3217 minutes, 32 secondsuh a piece of document where he made it seem like I bought fish uh fish uh in
17:3917 minutes, 39 secondslike 200,000 like 250,000 shekels worth of fish a quarter of a million and I was like uh that's a lot of fish yeah so I
17:4717 minutes, 47 secondstold the person when we showed up at my door and he was serving me that you know that notice and I was like hello I'm 19
17:5417 minutes, 54 secondsyears old I guarantee you I did not buy fish uh in 250,000 so that really really uh evil
18:0318 minutes, 3 secondsperson unfortunately uh because of him uh I lost my life basically uh I just woke up one day I realized I cannot have
18:1118 minutes, 11 secondsa bank account I cannot do anything and you know thanks uh to him thanks to that
18:1918 minutes, 19 secondsincident um I'm not able to leave my place I've been living here for many many years I have no Jewish neighbors I'm the only Jew in the neighborhood so
18:2718 minutes, 27 secondsyou can imagine how difficult it is to go home sometimes with a kipon at sit seat and all these things um I recently
18:3718 minutes, 37 secondsjust a few months ago I embraced the hat but I didn't embrace it because I have uh you know it's I'm not afraid of them
18:4418 minutes, 44 secondsor anything I just I started teaching because I'm a teacher uh so I started teaching in the morning um in some
18:5118 minutes, 51 secondssecular schools and I just I thought it would be maybe uh um you know more appropriate if I just keep my hat on
19:0019 minutesjust because I look a bit strange you know it's just like it's hard to digest me most of the time the kids I teach uh
19:0719 minutes, 7 secondshigh school kids or just even you know third graders fourth uh they don't know my story they don't know who I am and I
19:1419 minutes, 14 secondstry to keep it quiet they mostly uh go through months and months without knowing I recently got exposed
19:2419 minutes, 24 secondsuh cuz one of the kids saw me on TV I was on the news and and uh he ran to his dad he's like I know him I know him that's my teacher and then his dad came
19:3319 minutes, 33 secondsto school to look at me and then like oh wow you know impressive nice story and then the next day everybody knows and
19:4119 minutes, 41 secondsthey then so it's it's crazy it's uh it's it it comes with fear with pain
19:4919 minutes, 49 secondswith happiness joy sadness moments where you feel loneliness it comes with like
19:5719 minutes, 57 secondsjust uh a melting uh you know it's it's just it's a Melting Pot of emotions I I can describe it but you
20:0620 minutes, 6 secondsknow it's definitely never negative I think even when people are struggle to understand me
20:1320 minutes, 13 secondsor to understand what I am uh it's it doesn't feel negative here's a quick message from our friends at Tor anytime
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Chapter 9: Bitban
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21:5521 minutes, 55 secondsknow if I see you as an Ellie okay fine Jeff je MH you work in the healthcare industry I have a mustache also
22:0222 minutes, 2 secondsspecifically you've worked for healthcare companies and you have an understanding that nursing homes and assisted living facilities have a
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22:4922 minutes, 49 secondsfaxed papers that have to come through tons of moving Parts you can already start to see that you're now going to have to higher and higher and higher and
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Chapter 10: Why did you go to Judaism
24:2624 minutes, 26 secondsis why did you go to Judaism you know sometimes if someone has a negative uh experience when it comes to religion
24:3424 minutes, 34 secondsthey basically just drop religion as a whole and especially because of the background that you I guess were fed of
24:4124 minutes, 41 secondslike how in quotes bad Jews are why would you then say like okay let me become Jewish yeah so first of all
24:4824 minutes, 48 secondsgrowing up I was raised to hate Jews I I I it's I I struggle you know to say
24:5524 minutes, 55 secondsthose words I it's it's like hurts when I when I say those words um
25:0225 minutes, 2 secondsbecause because I am a g today so like I feel like okay so you hate yourself as a
25:0925 minutes, 9 secondskid you hated what you've always been because I tell myself I've always been a Jew and when I converted that's what I told the diim and the bin the
25:1825 minutes, 18 secondsjudges in the court I told them you know I've always been a Jew because when they asked me like what do you want to convert I said I have no idea but I know
25:2425 minutes, 24 secondsI've always been a Jew and what made me uh that's actually funny cuz uh later on after I finished my conversion I took a
25:3225 minutes, 32 secondsDNA test and I do have Jewish Heritage uh but that's not uh the point
25:3825 minutes, 38 secondshere so I I became a Jew because and not an atheist or a Christian because I had
25:4725 minutes, 47 secondsvery very bad experiences with Muslims and Arabs my whole life and not always on a personal level so it might not be
Chapter 11: Growing up in Israel
25:5725 minutes, 57 secondseven related related to me it could be just an Arab Muslim who has issues with a Christian or with a Jew or a black
26:0326 minutes, 3 secondsperson or that person or a white person it doesn't matter so growing up I always sense this hostility I always sense like
26:1126 minutes, 11 secondsI'm not part of these people and I was like as a kid I was mentally tortured for wanting to be kind I was mentally
26:2126 minutes, 21 secondstortured just for trying to be nice like I remember whenever I tried to be gentle to well-mannered whatever you know
26:3026 minutes, 30 secondsfamily members or just people in my surrounding they would um they would interpret that as weakness since I was a
26:3726 minutes, 37 secondskid all I've been seeing is guns people getting shot people getting killed weapons drugs uh terrorism on the
26:4526 minutes, 45 secondsstreets all the all the time it was the Oslo Accord days so we had a terrorist attack almost every single day in Tel
26:5226 minutes, 52 secondsAviv uh restaurants pubs on the buses and it was just a very traumatizing experience for me and as a kid you know
26:5926 minutes, 59 secondsI always felt this danger I felt this you know thing I can explain like this Dark Cloud that is just around my family
27:0827 minutes, 8 secondsand I remember I as a kid once I yelled at some of my uncles cuz I have 14 and I yelled at one of my uncles and
27:1627 minutes, 16 secondsI said which means uh there's no um H the
27:2427 minutes, 24 secondsword to translate that word it's more than good it's it's more is like there's
27:3227 minutes, 32 secondsno benefit not even pure it's like um um I could say there's nothing
27:4027 minutes, 40 secondsbeneficent there's nothing there's nothing beneficient beneficial yeah beneficial uh there's nothing beneficial in you people you know that like there's
27:4927 minutes, 49 secondsno good in you there's nothing good about you so is something that brings peace something that brings peace to your home brings peace to your life
27:5727 minutes, 57 secondsbrings peace to your palasa to your uh everything so I I told them that and I got the living hell uh they beat me that
28:0728 minutes, 7 secondsday and these were adults these were uh people in their 30s and I was just like
28:1328 minutes, 13 secondswhat 10 12 uh when I was 6 years old 7 years old I was forced to smuggle uh
28:2028 minutes, 20 secondsburners into uh prison cells uh because when I was that young uh for whatever reason security guards in prison and the
28:2928 minutes, 29 secondsyou know uh Penitentiary they they wouldn't even like check me I don't know why and we're talking about like 1999 uh
28:3928 minutes, 39 seconds2000 back then the security wasn't as good as today even CCTV back then they looked like potatoes so
28:4828 minutes, 48 secondsum I had many many many many many reasons to uh continue my spiritual
Chapter 12: Learning the Bible
28:5628 minutes, 56 secondsmoral old path uh which I always you know I always felt like it was intertwined with uh you know the Bible as well CU when I was five I did learn
29:0529 minutes, 5 secondsthe Bible I went to a French School uh we had the tanak and they would teach us some
29:1329 minutes, 13 secondsstories so my mother went and bought me because I begged her to uh I I begged
29:2029 minutes, 20 secondsher to buy me um uh those uh what's it called those tapes video tapes uh we didn't have DVDs back then that was
29:2829 minutes, 28 secondsbefore before DVDs came out and I asked her if she could buy me some movies and she went and she got me
29:3729 minutes, 37 secondsuh which means the biblical Heroes the greatest biblical Heroes and it was just a movie series and it was just a
29:4529 minutes, 45 secondsBiblical movie series and I just loved it and I loved every single character and I had a tanak at home because we had that class at school even though it was
29:5329 minutes, 53 secondsjust once a week so once a week you had one hour which was Tanaka hour so I ran I ran I went to uh the tanak I opened it
30:0330 minutes, 3 secondsand I began looking for the stories that I was just watching because I was so intrigued and I wanted to know more so
30:1030 minutes, 10 secondsthat's I guess that was my first crush uh with the tanak that was the first time uh we basically touched Bas and it
30:1830 minutes, 18 secondsbecame like a very dear piece of document for me it was very dear to my heart and even though I was a practicing Muslim I always told myself like this
30:2730 minutes, 27 secondsbook was true at one point you know CU that's what uh that's the Muslim belief uh the Islamic belief is that uh the
30:3530 minutes, 35 secondsbook has been corrupted uh but at one point it was uh true so as a kid you know I kept uh I I believed in that
30:4430 minutes, 44 secondsnotion so I I did not um I wasn't fully anti-judaism or
Chapter 13: No chronological order
30:5130 minutes, 51 secondsanything of the sort it's just I was brainwashed to believe that for example they taught us as kids that the Jewish people are punished
31:0031 minutesbecause they worshiped a golden Cal you know what I mean but then uh they don't you know they completely neglect the
31:0831 minutes, 8 secondsfact that so much happened since like after that point and uh it's it's and
31:1831 minutes, 18 secondsthat's the thing about Islam is that there's no chronological order in the book uh the very first chapter can talk
31:2731 minutes, 27 secondsabout the Messiah the second chapter can talk about Moses the third chapter can talk about Muhammad the fifth chapter
31:3531 minutes, 35 secondscan talk about uh Adam being born for the first time uh the 20th chapter can
31:4131 minutes, 41 secondstalk about um you know how God created the Quran before anything else but he would say like this God created the
31:5031 minutes, 50 secondsQuran and then taught the men and like he taught the Quran to the man but then you ask yourself like shouldn't he
31:5731 minutes, 57 secondscreate man first and then teach him the Quran uh but they stole that from the Torah as well and I was just intrigued I
32:0532 minutes, 5 secondsI guess I just wanted to learn more and more and more about Islam I also had a hard time defending many accusations that people had against Islam while I
32:1332 minutes, 13 secondswas traveling the world when I was 17 years old I left Israel and I began my uh very very long journey abroad so many
32:2132 minutes, 21 secondscountries so many continents and the more I found out about Islam I you know the more
32:2832 minutes, 28 secondsdisappointed I became uh it was a slap in my face for sure I um in the
32:3732 minutes, 37 secondsbeginning I was so traumatized to I felt like uh Plato with the allegory uh of the cave uh like when he comes out of
32:4632 minutes, 46 secondsthe cave and he's never seen sunlight before so he's just like blinded by the sunrays and he doesn't understand what's
32:5432 minutes, 54 secondshappening he's dizzy now so that's how I felt felt when I uh was researching and
33:0133 minutes, 1 seconduh I found out that Islam is not a legitimate religion I realized how much uh they stole from the Jews I began uh
33:1033 minutes, 10 secondsyou know this crazy obsession with just reading and researching and reading eventually I
33:1833 minutes, 18 secondsfound out that there was a Jewish guy uh hated his community for whatever reason his name is Yakov B Shalom y b shalum
33:2633 minutes, 26 secondswas the a Jew he was alive during Muhammad's era uh y Shalom taught
33:3333 minutes, 33 secondsMuhammad and his gang pretty much everything they KN they needed to know about uh Judaism and even Muhammad where
33:4333 minutes, 43 secondsyou know he he would go on he would tell the Jews Allah praise the way you purify yourselves why don't you show me and
33:5033 minutes, 50 secondsthen they taught him how to do n you know in Arabic in Islam the action is called wo obviously in Islam they have to overdo
33:5933 minutes, 59 secondseverything so in Judaism it's uh in in Islam it's pretty much uh
34:0734 minutes, 7 secondsthe same thing three times you wash except it's not just your hands uh you wash all the way to your elbow you wash
34:1534 minutes, 15 secondsyour knees as well your kneecap uh your feet uh your ears your nose your
34:2134 minutes, 21 secondsmouth and if you think about yon kipur uh which by the way is my favorite day of the
34:2834 minutes, 28 secondsyear and yum kipur uh Ramadan is just yum kipur times 30 you know it's uh it's
34:3534 minutes, 35 secondsa month of atonement it's a month where you fast uh a month where you know pretty much everything you're not supposed to
34:4334 minutes, 43 secondsdo in y kipur for a whole month and just from uh Sunrise till
34:4934 minutes, 49 secondssunset so I I I uh I was just baffled I
34:5534 minutes, 55 secondsguess uh by so many things uh whenever I asked I never received
35:0235 minutes, 2 secondssatisfactory uh answers I was never really happy with what they had to offer uh I decided to leave I was always a
35:1035 minutes, 10 secondsspiritual person I couldn't wrap my head around the idea that there is no God I told myself that that's impossible I know that there's God I don't know if
35:1935 minutes, 19 secondsGod has a book I don't know if people just have their own beautiful experience where they they feel like they've been touched by God so they do whatever they
35:2735 minutes, 27 secondsdo they either become hippies or they meditate or they do whatever it is they do uh for me personally I found a lot of
35:3535 minutes, 35 secondsuh passion uh in the Aramaic and Hebrew language uh I was I was just obsessed
35:4235 minutes, 42 secondswith both I I always felt power whenever I read or wrote or spoke Hebrew uh which
35:4935 minutes, 49 secondswas very difficult for me to explain and I always uh just L the sound of the Aramaic language so I found myself
35:5635 minutes, 56 secondssitting down home long before I even contemplated becoming a Jew I um I'll
36:0236 minutes, 2 secondsjust sit down and memorize uh uh like quotes uh and sayings in Aramaic uh
36:1036 minutes, 10 secondsreligious ones and I would just love the sound of them and that's you know one thing led to another and somehow
36:1836 minutes, 18 secondssomeday I found myself just calling the rabate in Israel um and telling them hey
36:2636 minutes, 26 secondsso one two three I want to become a Jew and they say why it's like oh well because I've always been a Jew that was
36:3336 minutes, 33 secondsliterally my answer I didn't know what I didn't even know what else to say so the more Jews I met during my conversion uh
36:4236 minutes, 42 secondsJourney um the more they told me I remind them of like uh an authentic
36:5036 minutes, 50 secondsancient Jew and so I was like okay that's a compliment I'll take it I would imagine
36:5836 minutes, 58 secondsthat it's so scary to to be you especially you're like still living amongst you know I guess people that
37:0637 minutes, 6 secondsprobably aren't happy with you what gives you the courage to even come on this podcast but i' I've obviously seen you um around um what gives you the
37:1537 minutes, 15 secondscourage to like I guess just speak up cuz you could have just gone and become Jewish and then live your life as a Jew
37:2237 minutes, 22 secondsand not really I guess promote your background and stuff like that um when I was
37:3037 minutes, 30 secondsconverting I knew that this this is about to be a very very
37:3737 minutes, 37 secondsirregular uh conversion uh most people who convert they do it because I mean I'm
37:4537 minutes, 45 secondsgeneralizing here I'm generalizing here it really depends on where they're converting
37:5137 minutes, 51 secondsfrom um I'll I'll just generalize uh Arab converts because I feel like I can because there are Arab Muslim converts
Chapter 14: Arab converts to Judaism
38:0038 minutesto convert to Judaism uh from my experience uh meeting them uh 99.99% of the
38:0838 minutes, 8 secondstime uh they do it because they're in a relationship with a Jewish women and sometimes uh her parents or something
38:1638 minutes, 16 secondslike that they tell her that uh you know she can't do that because you know it's it's a very obvious thing that she can't
38:2238 minutes, 22 secondsdo that but I told myself in the beginning a you don't have a Jewish woman so we don't have to worry about that b uh
38:3238 minutes, 32 secondsdon't expect anyone to accept you so if anyone accepts you that's a big bonus luckily for me many many many accept me
38:3938 minutes, 39 secondsthe vast majority do almost every single person I ever met accepted me I feel H
38:4638 minutes, 46 secondsbut I told myself also just know that no matter what you are you're a
38:5238 minutes, 52 secondsstrange strange chicken you're like uh you're like like a black wolf in your family and here you know don't don't
39:0039 minutesexpect things to be you know like sunshine and rainbows this is not what it's about a you just got closer uh to
39:0839 minutes, 8 secondsGod you made the Covenant now you are Abraham now you did what he did you took
39:1539 minutes, 15 secondsabam and turned it into Abraham he took tamaru which is my birth name and you turned it into Teo it was just like that
39:2339 minutes, 23 secondsI took UD and VAV e o which are two letters from God's name and I just told
39:2939 minutes, 29 secondsmyself now you are on a mission you are on a spiritual Quest you are going to talk to God every single day and you
39:3839 minutes, 38 secondshave to get this thoughts out there thoughts um beliefs
39:4739 minutes, 47 secondsopinions knowledge about the Arab world Arab culture and the Muslim World sometimes I
39:5439 minutes, 54 secondsfeel like I was inclined to become this activist even before I
40:0140 minutes, 1 secondconverted but when I was converting I wasn't thinking about
40:0740 minutes, 7 secondsactivism as much I was just I was just trying to live I was trying to find a
40:1540 minutes, 15 secondsreason to live I was trying to find happiness in the world I was trying to find answers you know just answers I
40:2240 minutes, 22 secondsbelieve every single person out there asks uh themselves why are we here who are we what's the point to all of this
40:2940 minutes, 29 secondsis there a point to all of this we have to uh we kind of have to make a point
40:3640 minutes, 36 secondsand eventually one day something just like just like just like that uh I
40:4340 minutes, 43 secondsgrabbed the camera I told myself you know you have video skills take the camera sit in front of the camera and just share share what's
40:5240 minutes, 52 secondson your mind so I sat down and I began sharing stories I sat down down and I talked about uh a group of uh Arabs that
Chapter 15: Arabs in Holland
41:0041 minutesI met in Holland uh they were working in a restaurant I went and I bought a
41:0741 minutes, 7 secondsburger and um they obviously didn't know I could understand Arabic because I was the only client in the restaurant I was
41:1641 minutes, 16 secondsthe only customer and they were just threatening to kill each other while I was having the burger I was just like I'm taking a
41:2441 minutes, 24 secondsbite and the very first bite the guy was telling the other person that he was going to slit his throat and that he was
41:3141 minutes, 31 secondsgoing to mop the floor with his blood the other guy told him you just wait uh you know wait till I go and I see your
41:3841 minutes, 38 secondssister I know where she lives don't you forget that I'm going to do that as soon as this shift is over and I was just like sitting there I was like is this
41:4641 minutes, 46 secondsreal cuz that did not stop for like minutes on minutes they were just like I thought they were going to kill each
41:5341 minutes, 53 secondsother on the spot and and where wherever I went it doesn't matter wherever I went I always saw this ugliness in these
42:0242 minutes, 2 secondspeople when I was living in Thailand I was living in Thailand for years I would meet Arabs that would come and visit and they would sit at restaurants and I can
42:1042 minutes, 10 secondsunderstand them while everyone else can and they have this thing that I just I hate so much where they are
42:1742 minutes, 17 secondsdisrespecting everyone that is sitting there they're mocking them because they don't understand the language and then in English they sound totally different
42:2642 minutes, 26 secondsand like I could I could spot the hypocrisy and one day this Arab guy just gets up um goes to this person and that
42:3542 minutes, 35 secondsperson realized I guess uh he was a tie person that does not speak English but the other guy was speaking to him in Arabic and he was telling him you know
42:4342 minutes, 43 secondsawful things that he was going to do to know his wife etc etc uh the Tye person uh for whatever reason he knew what was
42:5342 minutes, 53 secondshappening uh and I was there and he just grabbed an axe he had like an Axe and he just he hit him with that axe you know
43:0243 minutes, 2 secondshe got him in the collar bone and the guy was rushed to the hospital he needed uh he needed surgery on the spot because
43:1043 minutes, 10 secondshe was going to die so I just began sharing these stories sharing my interactions with Arab Muslims here around the world uh talking about Israel
Chapter 16: My Platform
43:1943 minutes, 19 secondstalking about like Jewish people talking about the Arab Muslim culture upbringing and you know one thing led to another
43:2843 minutes, 28 secondsand and it became um a truth-telling storytelling uh
43:3543 minutes, 35 secondsVibe my whole platform thing you know that's what it is I don't consider myself to be a hbar person even though
43:4343 minutes, 43 secondson Israeli news channels they tend to call me like uh the Arab Muslim who became a Jew sh and uh now uh does uh
43:5343 minutes, 53 secondswonderful advocacy for Israel ET but I I I just I feel like I feel
44:0044 minuteslike I'm a truth teller more than a person that's very powerful we'll be right back this week's
Chapter 17: Pick Purple
44:0944 minutes, 9 secondsepisode but I am very excited to tell you all about pick purple primarily because I lived in a building in farra
44:1744 minutes, 17 secondsand I don't know every 3 weeks or something like that there would be a ton tons of garbage bags white garbage bags
44:2544 minutes, 25 secondswith the words written a marker pick purple and I was pretty confused I'm like what is this I went to my wife and she told me she's like oh we actually
44:3444 minutes, 34 secondsgave a bunch of our stuff to pick purple I'm like what's pick purple she's like it's very simple pick purple is a nonprofit organization that helps people
44:4244 minutes, 42 secondsin need and they take the clothing and sometimes they give it directly to them sometimes they sell it and like you could buy gorgeous suit for a dollar
44:5044 minutes, 50 secondsbecause someone's like hey I don't need this anymore and they help those in need who don't have clothes basically take your in quotes garbage or clothing that
44:5844 minutes, 58 secondsyou're like I don't need thism of course don't like give them your like totally ripped up shirt but give them the clothes that you're not wearing anymore
45:0545 minutes, 5 secondsand those in need will get it at an incredible price again they're nonprofit and when they make money off anything
45:1445 minutes, 14 secondsthat they sell or give to others well I should say sell then what happens is they take that money and all goes
45:2145 minutes, 21 secondstowards project baa which pick purple is under B essentially helps girls who are in high schools who are struggling who
45:2845 minutes, 28 secondsneed to you know it's care of help them connect more to their Judaism and to their Jewish roots and it obviously helps those girls more than just in high
45:3645 minutes, 36 secondsschool literally throughout their life B's beautiful project so pick purple is amazing because I think most importantly
45:4345 minutes, 43 secondsyour clothing that you have that you're not going to wear anymore or it's just going to sit in your closet for another like five months to 10 years will actually be worn by people in need and
45:5245 minutes, 52 secondsthose people in need will actually benefit and at really really great reduced prices and of course the proceeds from that all go directly to
46:0046 minutesBata to help those girls find their Jewish roots so it's a win win win and the process I kid you not I did this
46:0846 minutes, 8 secondsbefore because I literally have stuff to give pick purple because we've been using it for now I don't know like four years is so simple go to pick purple.or
46:1746 minutes, 17 secondsand you will literally follow it out they'll say the process is so simple they go they pick it up from you they take it from your house you put it in
46:2446 minutes, 24 secondslike a garbage bag you mark it as Pi purple they drop it all put it outside your house from 9:00 a.m. till I don't know 5:00 p.m. someone will come pick it up bada bing bada boom you don't need to
46:3246 minutes, 32 secondsdo anything better service in the garbage man they actually come to your door and actually it goes to people in need so go to pick purple.or we know
46:4046 minutes, 40 secondspesa's coming up so you probably are cleaning up and that tells me why we should talk about twiy now because pck
46:4846 minutes, 48 secondspurple is for complimentary cuz you might be thinking hey I need an update to my wardrobe I want to get clothing
46:5546 minutes, 55 secondsthat's actually going to last that I don't need to throw out or give away and that's why I love twillery and
47:0247 minutes, 2 secondspersonally I have been I have like 20 pairs of pants not from Tillery that they're great pairs of pants and I'm like but I'm not wearing I haven't worn them since I started advertising for
47:1047 minutes, 10 secondsTillery that's I gave them pick purple but twi's Pants last I've said this before I have pants that lasted me for
47:1747 minutes, 17 secondsover five years I'm right now um the shabas and rocking their ear suit which is This brilliant technology just makes
47:2547 minutes, 25 secondsthis suit breathable I kid you not you probably will not want to wear other suits after that um so go ahead and check that out but you're thinking hey
47:3347 minutes, 33 secondsdo I still get that discount yes you do you get $18 off with the code word inspire get their ear suit get their pants we're going to talk about their
47:4047 minutes, 40 secondsother incredible items their shirts their polos so much more next week now back to our conversation since October
Chapter 18: Distortion
47:4847 minutes, 48 seconds7th uh there's been a tremendous amount of anti-Semitism going on that maybe it's been there in the background but
47:5747 minutes, 57 secondsnow it's at the Forefront I'm seeing myself so many lies being told so much
48:0448 minutes, 4 secondsDistortion uh what are you seeing on your end yeah the word distortion is definitely spoton they are so good at
48:1448 minutes, 14 secondsthis they're they've become so sophisticated at distorting things taking things uh out of context and
48:2348 minutes, 23 secondsblowing things out of proportionality I've I've felt that since the very first day uh when my mother sent me um she
48:3248 minutes, 32 secondssent me an Al jazer piece I'm not sure if it was Al jazer or maybe something else but uh they were trying to say that
48:3948 minutes, 39 secondsthere were no rapes and that uh innocent civilians weren't murdered only soldiers
48:4648 minutes, 46 secondsand that the civilians were murdered by the soldiers some ridiculous stuff so
48:5448 minutes, 54 secondsDistortion that's the word I'm seeing it everywhere for sure from you know even even we have some unfortunately we have
49:0249 minutes, 2 secondssome awful awful journalists within Israel we don't even know what they're talking about we had that one journalist from haat who went and said that the
49:1049 minutes, 10 secondshelicopter Israeli helicopter uh was shooting uh the people at the festival that turned out uh to be not true but it
49:1949 minutes, 19 secondstook him a week to correct himself and you know that cost us many anti-semitic uh
49:2749 minutes, 27 secondsuh pieces out there from Al jazer and their friends and not just them I think we had
49:3349 minutes, 33 secondsRiv drer a journalist that is a major star uh in Al jazer right now aiv du Riv
49:4149 minutes, 41 secondsdrer is a channel 13 journalist uh for whatever reason he said what he said you know I don't want to even repeat what he said but anyone
49:4949 minutes, 49 secondscan Google his name uh it has millions of views on Al jazer as well so unfortunately we have sometimes we don't
49:5649 minutes, 56 secondshave the best ambassadors and I guess they kind of f but we don't it doesn't it doesn't even need to be that uh you know uh when we mess up they just take
50:0550 minutes, 5 secondsadvantage they capitalize uh but the world is you know inherently
50:1250 minutes, 12 secondsanti-semitic uh even the ones who pretend like they're not they are uh I felt that traveling the world uh I felt
50:1950 minutes, 19 secondsthat here after October 7th um when I was seeing the celebrations you know the Arabs here were celebrating and whenever there was like a rocket that went off a
50:2850 minutes, 28 secondssiren uh my neighbors I even have phone record like I have recordings on my phone video video recordings of my
50:3550 minutes, 35 secondsneighbors uh celebrating just chanting clapping uh being extremely happy this it's not
50:4450 minutes, 44 secondsunusual you know growing up I've seen this I've seen this at school I've seen this everywhere when gilad Shalit was
50:5150 minutes, 51 secondskidnapped and everyone danced and clapped and celebr bra 911 the Iraq War
50:5850 minutes, 58 secondseven though Iraq was losing uh but you know they they were happy they thought you know the Iraq was going to win um
51:0851 minutes, 8 secondsit's it's the culture of uh not Culture The Cult of death the this uh thing
Chapter 19: You the Jew
51:1551 minutes, 15 secondslisten I I I I mean I I understand how we see it as evil but I'm sure in their heads they're not looking at it like they're evil like what what what how do
51:2451 minutes, 24 secondsthey justify well first of all you the Jew and I you know I'm very proud to be your brother
51:3151 minutes, 31 secondsright now but uh you the Jew uh you're a liar uh you're uh a master of
51:3951 minutes, 39 secondsdeception um you're a thief you're this you're that that's what you're fed uh from the day you're born so they
51:4851 minutes, 48 secondsinherently victimize themselves and what you're uh seeing is you know you're just witnessing the evolution ution of uh a a
51:5851 minutes, 58 secondsa product that just victimized itself for so long where they always feel for
52:0452 minutes, 4 secondsthemselves but see you as the enemy and they don't uh they don't think that
52:1152 minutes, 11 secondsthey're bad people for killing you they think they're going to heaven they think uh they're doing uh
52:1752 minutes, 17 secondstheir social um Circle great Justice uh by taking you out definitely that's
52:2652 minutes, 26 secondsit's very scary as we wrap up cuz I I feel like I could talk to you for like literally 5 hours and be fascinated
Chapter 20: Who would it be
52:3452 minutes, 34 secondsum if there was one person in history could be from the Kish from the Bible it could be you know from 50 years ago that
52:4252 minutes, 42 secondsif you could sit down with for an hour who would it be wow you're tackling me here uh so
52:5152 minutes, 51 secondsmany so many wow you get one I get one
52:5752 minutes, 57 secondsokay I will take uh M I will
53:0353 minutes, 3 seconds[Music]
53:0653 minutes, 6 secondstake um I think the r my is I think he's an exceptional character uh to me he's
53:1553 minutes, 15 secondsalmost a prophet really um I just I enjoy reading his OT his his
53:2453 minutes, 24 secondsEpistles uh the Yemen epistle especially that one I memor I memorized parts of it just
53:3253 minutes, 32 secondsbecause it's so beautiful and so relevant to this day you know um it has to be
53:3953 minutes, 39 secondshim um on account of our sins God has cast us into the midst of this people the nation of
53:4753 minutes, 47 secondsIshmael and as in Hebrew it's
53:5853 minutes, 58 secondswho always devis ways to harm us and to debase us and no nation has ever done more more harm to Israel than
54:0554 minutes, 5 secondsIshmael so I um I I definitely recommend to anyone who's never uh read uh the
54:1454 minutes, 14 secondsYemen epistle to read it by theam if you know Hebrew read it in Hebrew because he wrote it like a song So at the end of
54:2154 minutes, 21 secondsevery uh sentence it actually Rhymes and if it doesn't rhyme then it's going to rhyme in two or three sentences so it's
54:2854 minutes, 28 secondsjust uh the rambam is someone I I dreamt about the rambam a lot that's why I say I wish I could talk to him because I talk to him in my dreams but I don't
54:3654 minutes, 36 secondsknow if in my dreams it was him or is just my subconscious looking like him talking like him so what does he say in
Chapter 21: Meeting a Jew
54:4354 minutes, 43 secondsyour dreams tips help uh sometimes I because I have his books here I have U I
54:5254 minutes, 52 secondshave The KES here a mini one um I think about his ideas a lot I think about even
54:5854 minutes, 58 secondslike the uh guy to the perplexed um I remember I met this Jew who was trying to talk me out of Judaism a Jew yeah he
55:0855 minutes, 8 secondswas trying to talk me out of Judaism and he was telling look this is a good book you should read this this is good book and I read it and then he was trying to
55:1655 minutes, 16 secondslike summarize it for me he was trying to give me the gist I'm like I think you don't understand it and I think you forgot that this book was written in
55:2355 minutes, 23 secondsArabic basically any Arabic speaker could read this book and I think he was trying to do something good here but
55:3155 minutes, 31 secondsyou're you know you're misinterpreting his words and in my dreams I I I don't want to go into details but
55:4055 minutes, 40 secondsuh I had incidents where I was going through massive massive dilemas and in my dream he popped and I was just asking
55:4855 minutes, 48 secondsfor advice and it was very painful uh topics and moments in my life when when I spoke to him about
55:5655 minutes, 56 secondsthese things so that's why I I found it that's why I found it extremely difficult to
56:0356 minutes, 3 secondsbelieve uh I'm like is this him or is this me is this what is this or am I imagining this I mean it's a dream but
56:1256 minutes, 12 secondsdreams can be tricky they can be extremely tricky and I as someone who unfortunately grew up with night terrors
56:2156 minutes, 21 secondsand night terrors are are a Paras peris uh what is it forgot the name of that
56:2856 minutes, 28 secondsthing condition uh it's just like nightmares but worse uh it's when you don't know if you're awake or not and
56:3556 minutes, 35 secondsyou're dreaming and it's always a bad dream and you're always going to die in that dream so these are
56:4556 minutes, 45 secondsnighters but he wasn't in my nighters he he was never in any my night terrist no right I can
Chapter 22: commandments
56:5256 minutes, 52 secondsimagine it uh out of the 600 113 Mitzvah there's a lot yeah is there one in particular that means a little more to
57:0057 minutesyou than the rest H I think uh the one that means the most
57:0857 minutes, 8 secondsis uh and you shall love to yourself uh you should love for your neighbor what you love for yourself something you know
57:1657 minutes, 16 secondssomewhere along these lines uh I unfortunately in the beginning when I uh was
57:2357 minutes, 23 secondsconverting um I feel like I did not understand this aspect enough uh unfortunately the Jewish people only
57:3157 minutes, 31 secondsafter traumas uh come together and remember who they are and remember that people time after time they've been
57:3857 minutes, 38 secondstrying to kill them us and now it's you know the time to hug it out and you know
57:4557 minutes, 45 secondsuh be together again so when I converted I did not take this whole uh very
57:5357 minutes, 53 secondsseriously and I have been now I guess since the War uh just you know to love
58:0058 minutesand accept unconditionally and hug and uh be okay even with those who disagree with you it doesn't matter what they
58:0858 minutes, 8 secondsbelieve in or if they don't believe in anything secular Safar asazi kidi yite
58:1558 minutes, 15 secondsOrthodox reform like I just you know I woke up one day I'm like you know we should just we should love a little more we should love everyone a little more
58:2458 minutes, 24 secondsand that was day I just I think I took that mitvah and I began really applying it uh
58:3158 minutes, 31 secondsjust to be more understanding of others and understand that sometimes when people behave in a certain way it's because they feel pain that you can't
58:4058 minutes, 40 secondssee and that's why they're reacting the way they're reacting but the same way you can't control the way you react
58:4858 minutes, 48 secondssometimes I feel like others can do that as well so we should just show more love um to everyone and that's a great
58:5658 minutes, 56 secondscommandment I think to live by that's really mature and uh really
59:0359 minutes, 3 secondsbeautiful answer so I'm the last question for you is it's more of advice
59:1059 minutes, 10 secondsfor someone who's watching this and you know actually before we get to that before we get to that what's what's like where's your future where do you see
59:1959 minutes, 19 secondsyour future like do are you looking to move out of the the community that you're in do you want to move to more Jewish community do you want to move to
59:2659 minutes, 26 secondsAmerica do you want to uh get married I don't even know I assume you're single I'm not even sure so just I guess tell us about like what your hopes are yeah I
59:3559 minutes, 35 secondsI I am single um in terms of my future I guess what I'm doing right now is I'm
59:4259 minutes, 42 secondsjust trying to build myself and I guess when I'll feel ready and uh I feel mature enough to get married but at the
59:5159 minutes, 51 secondssame time I feel like I'm not because part of that maturity comes with uh you need money to have uh a family
1:00:011 hour, 1 secondyou got to take care of your wife you got to take care of your kids you got to take care of everyone and sometimes it's not just your wife when you get married
1:00:091 hour, 9 secondsyou marry your wife's family all of a sudden you're married with her parents as well and her family and uh and it's
1:00:161 hour, 16 secondstough uh so when that does you know when that day does come I just want to be prepared I want to be already I don't
1:00:251 hour, 25 secondswant to be caught with my uh guard down uh I want to do it the way it should be done so it's just a matter of time and
1:00:331 hour, 33 secondsin terms of leaving I don't know you know sometimes I feel like I want to leave but most of the time I don't um when do I want to leave when I guess you
1:00:411 hour, 41 secondsknow I come across Arabs were extremely negative or I get into like a verbal uh uh you know verbal conflict with people
1:00:501 hour, 50 secondsbecause of my decisions to convert etc etc or sometimes you know just when I express my political opinion and or I
1:00:591 hour, 59 secondsjust share you know some political insights given money upbringing uh sometimes Jews get extremely offended and when they get
1:01:071 hour, 1 minute, 7 secondsoffended I feel like it hurts them and then like I guess that hurts and at that moment I kind of don't want to be around
1:01:151 hour, 1 minute, 15 secondsbecause I feel ashamed and I feel like oh maybe I should have now maybe I should have said something else maybe it should have been different words y y y
1:01:241 hour, 1 minute, 24 secondsuh so yeah but it's a learning process you know sometimes I go hard on myself I am my own worst critic but I tell myself look it's a learning process today you
1:01:321 hour, 1 minute, 32 secondsspoke to that person and you maybe you came off you know as two rightwing and next time try again try to appear less
1:01:401 hour, 1 minute, 40 secondsright-wing uh just because you know I believe in certain values you I believe in I believe that you know if non-jews
1:01:471 hour, 1 minute, 47 secondswant to be here they are welcome to stay but they should understand what this place is not fight it not resist and
1:01:551 hour, 1 minute, 55 secondsjust live a good life you know they don't need political aspirations to live a good life I just don't understand why they need that so you know sometimes
1:02:031 hour, 2 minutes, 3 secondssome Jews don't really like my answers uh because they're you know they're just brought up in a certain way to believe in certain set of values you know and
1:02:121 hour, 2 minutes, 12 secondswhat do you do like for like shabus do you walk over to people for meals you do your own thing so for shabis uh most of
1:02:191 hour, 2 minutes, 19 secondsthe time I do it by myself but um whenever I don't do it by myself I go to the RAB the RAB is uh the
1:02:291 hour, 2 minutes, 29 secondsrovid N um it's an askanazi Hungarian
1:02:371 hour, 2 minutes, 37 secondssh no which is like cidic I really enjoy going there I've been going there for like two three years now I think about
1:02:451 hour, 2 minutes, 45 secondsthree years uh I've done many many holidays with them I have some you know American and uh um British acquaintances
1:02:551 hour, 2 minutes, 55 secondsthat I've met during the past couple of years and they invite me sometimes during the holidays you know in rosha Shai I spent it with a British family uh
1:03:031 hour, 3 minutes, 3 secondslast piss off again I spent it with a British family so I do get invited from time to time to you know they I get
1:03:101 hour, 3 minutes, 10 secondshosted in holidays and you know yeah but most of the time I just go to a nearby sh and I saw in a different interview
1:03:191 hour, 3 minutes, 19 secondsyou're you you're practicing yemenite correct is that accur correct why do you flock towards uh being a
1:03:271 hour, 3 minutes, 27 secondsyemenite as opposed to ashkanazi or sari well yemenites are a minority uh their
1:03:341 hour, 3 minutes, 34 secondsculture and ritual is all uh mysterious uh I wanted to be in you know I wanted to be let in on a secret I
1:03:431 hour, 3 minutes, 43 secondswanted uh I was looking for the most authentic oldest uh nosak um how do you say nosak in English I'm
1:03:521 hour, 3 minutes, 52 secondscurious It's a um that's a good question huh yeah I'm not the worthiest person but Noak would be like a prayer text
1:04:021 hour, 4 minutes, 2 secondsprayer rendition I'm not exactly sure there's one word yeah so I I just love there like a Style style of prayer a style of prayer yeah we could say a
1:04:101 hour, 4 minutes, 10 secondsstyle of prayer uh I heard their kadish the first time before I heard any Jewish prayer ever I heard the emonite kadish I
1:04:181 hour, 4 minutes, 18 secondscried uh for three days straight uh it really it really felt like it was speaking to my soul it was like directly
1:04:251 hour, 4 minutes, 25 secondsspeaking to my soul and the yemenite kadish is just so like no offense but it's so much more powerful uh than every
1:04:351 hour, 4 minutes, 35 secondsother kadish out there uh I even spoke to the rebe about it and he mentioned a crazy story about how he got emotional
1:04:431 hour, 4 minutes, 43 secondsmany many years ago when he and his father you know his father was the the older uh rebi but when he passed uh his
1:04:511 hour, 4 minutes, 51 secondsson became the rebi um his father had a yemenite friend and he told me it's crazy how the yemenites are so dark and
1:04:591 hour, 4 minutes, 59 secondswe are so white but we are so similar and he was tell like we are so similar we are like he's referring to ashkenazim
1:05:061 hour, 5 minutes, 6 secondsand yanites because they pronounce words very we pronounce words very similarly uh for example we say Dono you know I'm
1:05:141 hour, 5 minutes, 14 secondsnot saying the ah at the beginning but like we say Dono and say the same don't
1:05:211 hour, 5 minutes, 21 secondsthey say different and uh just en I guess you know many many things and he mentioned the um the kadish as well they
1:05:291 hour, 5 minutes, 29 secondshave a very very very long kadish like maybe four minutes long there are extra paragraphs there
1:05:361 hour, 5 minutes, 36 secondsand the k for Shabbat is a bit longer too so I remember the first time I I went and I uh I had to do kadou because
1:05:431 hour, 5 minutes, 43 secondsI showed a plate to the Shabbat table and they already started eating so I did kou on the table and they all stared at me they all stared at me they understand
1:05:521 hour, 5 minutes, 52 secondsbut it was a yite kadou and you know it's like so it's like they're looking at me
1:06:001 hour, 6 minuteslike what where is that coming from like you do not have a yemenite accent when you speak but that's a yeminite accent when you when you pray like yeah I got
1:06:091 hour, 6 minutes, 9 secondsused to it so yeah I just fell in love with the yemenite culture yite prayer everything yemenite all day I love that
1:06:171 hour, 6 minutes, 17 secondsI love that okay so I want to ask you for advice for anyone who's watching that's going through a a troubling time
1:06:261 hour, 6 minutes, 26 secondsthey're not exactly sure how to navigate their life what what advice do you have for them to take it to the next
1:06:341 hour, 6 minutes, 34 secondslevel uh first of all uh that too shall pass uh it's not going to be reigning forever eventually that storm is gonna
1:06:431 hour, 6 minutes, 43 secondswear out um I think the best advice I could
1:06:481 hour, 6 minutes, 48 secondsgive is people should really understand that relationships are probably the most
1:06:561 hour, 6 minutes, 56 secondsvaluable thing you have in your life so it doesn't matter who you meet uh try to be nice to everyone try to be loving and
1:07:031 hour, 7 minutes, 3 secondscaring and kind uh you never know where you will meet that person when you'll meet that
1:07:101 hour, 7 minutes, 10 secondsperson and when you do meet again you know the tides might might turn
1:07:191 hour, 7 minutes, 19 secondsand I don't I don't even know how to explain it but it's it's just it's always it's
1:07:251 hour, 7 minutes, 25 secondsbetter to bond with people and build a really strong relationship with them than just you know make them
1:07:341 hour, 7 minutes, 34 secondsstrangers and it's not it's not going to last forever whatever pain you're going through sometimes you just got to get up
1:07:421 hour, 7 minutes, 42 secondsand look at life and be like hey look you hit like a bee uh I'm not going to stay down I'm not going to be on my knees I will uh I
1:07:511 hour, 7 minutes, 51 secondswill fight back it's hard it's difficult but Hashem helps he helps everyone as
1:07:591 hour, 7 minutes, 59 secondsthe says for all of his
1:08:091 hour, 8 minutes, 9 secondsCreations so I think uh if you feel down don't it's it's just a matter of
1:08:161 hour, 8 minutes, 16 secondstime we all go through that it's not just you really powerful timore if someone wants to follow along your
1:08:231 hour, 8 minutes, 23 secondsJourney where are the best places that they could see you the best place to find me right now is definitely on Instagram I get a lot of hits there and
1:08:321 hour, 8 minutes, 32 secondsa lot of people message me all the time and I think that's the place Instagram and YouTube teor aklan t i m o r a k l i
1:08:401 hour, 8 minutes, 40 secondsn timour aen that's my name it's everywhere all over social media Facebook Instagram Twitter YouTube all
1:08:481 hour, 8 minutes, 48 secondssame name okay amazing tear thank you so much thank you for opening up about your journey thank you and um yeah anyone
1:08:551 hour, 8 minutes, 55 secondswho's watching or listening I I I got to tell them all to go follow you that's where I first got introduced to you and um yeah you're putting out good stuff
1:09:031 hour, 9 minutes, 3 secondsand you're changing the world so thanks again for doing this um thank you I I will humbly accept your or a kind
1:09:111 hour, 9 minutes, 11 secondscompliment I don't know if I'm changing the world I just know I'm I'm sharing my truth and the truth well thank you thank you thank you so much for watching this
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1:10:471 hour, 10 minutes, 47 secondsI'm transitioning into our our setup we have been at this in this studio where I'm recording this right now um for for
1:10:561 hour, 10 minutes, 56 secondsat least for the podcast for like 3 years and we never really invested in a crazy setup because we always said like
1:11:051 hour, 11 minutes, 5 secondslet's make sure the system works the problem is I personally have to hit record on a few cameras on a mixer the
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1:11:291 hour, 11 minutes, 29 secondsthey say let's how do we solve all those issues that's going to cost you a lot of time and energy and why don't we fix
1:11:361 hour, 11 minutes, 36 secondsthat system so we took that idea from bipping and we hired an incredible team
1:11:421 hour, 11 minutes, 42 secondsto help us turn what we feel living Kim is this has been literally since the summer um and we actually started
1:11:501 hour, 11 minutes, 50 secondsworking on it in September the brand new living liim Studios which um we definitely have a few episodes still in
1:11:581 hour, 11 minutes, 58 secondsthe bag that you'll see you'll see the studio still but sadly the studio is going away you'll see our brand new gorgeous Studio that like this mentality
1:12:061 hour, 12 minutes, 6 secondsfrom Bing of like we are I am wasting so much time on on the process of uploading and the mistakes that are happening and
1:12:151 hour, 12 minutes, 15 secondsthen then just getting it all in and looking as great as possible if you watch this interview did a little test
1:12:221 hour, 12 minutes, 22 secondsrun over here with just the zoom camera um there's a lot more coming and uh if if you have a company that you're like
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